MONEY doesn't buy the pursuit of HAPPINESS

How is it possible that with a negative balance of 656 dollars and 41 cents, and declining, I am the happiest I’ve ever been? I have learned to live with simplicity. I have created peace within myself and my home, wherever it may be. Could I have been more responsible with my spending? Not really, see when I was in maternity leave and on medical leave, paychecks were delayed, meaning I used my savings to pay month-to-month payments. By the time I was up to date with paychecks from my job, I had no savings. And then I quit my job after two weeks of working. So in reality I only received a month’s worth of payments, which was already spent for the month of July and partially for the month of August. I was left with no money, no credit cards to use as backup and living with the hope of a coin to drop on my hands sometime, better sooner than later. Yet, I didn’t live thinking about my bank account unless I was reminded of it. I’d even gift to others money, presents or little treats when I knew I was to fall short soon in my bank account. Even getting close to Layla’s first birthday, we didn’t know how we would be able to pay for the pictures, the cake or the party. Somehow we received help from loved ones and the discounts would come about, here and there in the little things we had to buy for the event. The universe hands gifts ranging from a penny to a million. We don’t see the return of what we give fast enough, but if given with heart and honesty, and humility, it always returns in the smallest and grandest forms.

Then, when we least expected it, we began to receive abundance. Everything started to align. We did the pictures, we bought the cake and we celebrated our little girl’s first birthday with family. We made amends with our debt. While that was happening, we had already found peace within ourselves prior to the universe gifting us with the world at our feet. We didn’t have all that we wanted, just yet; but it was on the way. We lived even with nothing in our pockets. We smiled because we were genuinely grateful for life, for taking another breath of air each morning, and sleeping with a pillow and a bed underneath us; for our health, my emotional healing and our baby growing each day.

We changed the idea of what luxury meant for us and so everything else felt like extra; like a bonus. We elevated our trust in each other. We heightened ourselves, our mental health and took care of our needs with simplicity. We always had food and milk for the baby. Sometimes we didn’t have for us, but we got by with eggs and rice and sometimes a good banana. I can’t tell you that it’s been easy, but we have learned to love our lives with whatever we have and that has been the best and greatest lessons to have learned in such a small period of time. Money can’t buy happiness. Only you can find the pursuit of happiness within.