Getting On The Rollercoaster
Here comes the hormonesssss! That is something very wild! I wish I was lying. I was not nauseous as most know that to be a symptom, I literally didn’t know I was pregnant until I noticed I missed my period by two weeks (in my case, it was always predictable) and my boobs, they were just about to explode and I didn’t understand why. Well, I eventually found out why, but yes, the hormones were already doing its work, especially with those heat flashes I was getting in the middle of the night, drenching the bed sheets in pure sweat. And, it’s just the beginning! My body was preparing for the ultimate rollercoaster. The day I found out I was pregnant, we were at my sister’s house, we had just finished our income taxes and I obliviously asked my sister, “I just started working out a lot and eating super healthy, do you think that can affect my period, I read it online, what do you think? And she said “nope you’re pregnant”, I was stunned by her response and she followed up with a question “did you get tested already?”, I said “no”, she said, “well go buy one.”
When I tell you that drive was more nerve wrecking than me arriving home past curfew when I was out and about, it was beyond terrifying. There was a part of me that felt that it would be a yes and I didn’t want to face the reality of that possibility. So I drove to Walgreens, I bought a test and I always recall that awkward moment with the cashier who you feel is judging you for buying the test, like they now know you’ve had sex... Now, if you ask me to do you the favor to go buy one, it’s really no big deal, but that first purchase is haunting.
Anyway, I drove back to my sister’s and she was excited and my nephew was dropping hints all day long. First, he was all over me, super attached in a way he’s never been before. I mean my nephew and I are close, but him and his mom are closer and that day he was just attached. They say it’s a sign when babies are close to you. Then it was the biting my nose all day thing. It could have been a phase, Layla is going through it now, but we have a video of it, where we say if he bites my nose one more time it means I'm pregnant, if he doesn’t then I’m not. Yeah, the kid bit my nose. I chuckled but I was shitting bricks.
I went and peed on the stick and my sister waited. She joked and was like “it’s in!” and said “no just kidding it’s loading”, I think I didn’t speak through the whole revelation. Then my sister screamed “YOU’RE PREGNANT AHHHH “, and she ran to hug me, I hugged back, but I was totally shocked. I would not be surprised if there was a third person in the room or an actual recording of my reaction, and found myself looking pale, because my body felt stale for the milliseconds of that whole occurrence. I cried, my sister cried and it was like holy shit I can’t drink now. I was then programmed in a weird way, where I just started looking up things of what to do, not to do, downloading the right apps, etc., all through the drive to target to get my mom, mother-in-law and husband a gift with the news. They were all ecstatic. My husband was in shock but was totally alright with the adventure we were getting ourselves into. And then, it was the keeping it quiet for a few weeks and in the meanwhile, not moving or breathing until I got to see my first ultrasound. Of course, until then, google was my go-to source.
